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Another writing about writing post as procrastination. I've got Yuletide to do and H/C bingo is due the end of the month and I've done hardly anything yet. This is in contrast to my November productivity – I may have to instigate the Tumblr ban again. No tumbling until I've written something D:
I really do need to start something fresh soon if only to shake the 'fic hangover' that I want to talk about. I really want people to comment and say 'yes, yes, I understand', so let me explain this concept and then you can agree. Or not – that's okay too :D
You've been involved writing a fic; maybe it's a long fic/multi chapter epic, or just a really intense fic. Maybe it's a dissertation – the first time I encountered this phenomenon was just after finishing university – or a thesis. Maybe it's a legal brief or a project proposal. Whatever the document, you've put a lot of time and research into it, but it's done with now. It's been posted at your journal, handed in to the faculty administrators, been sent to the client, whatever is appropriate.
But you can't let go. You find yourself still thinking about it, when you go to bed, or wake up, or while you're in the shower. 'What if I got this fact wrong?' and 'What if I just change this line?' and in creative works, 'What if the ending was this instead? Or if I expanded on that part in the middle?'.
Since posting my two recent long fics I've felt like this. And it really hasn't got anything to do with the quality of the finished products so much as my inability to let go, to stop wanting perfection, to start something new.
I really do need to start something fresh soon if only to shake the 'fic hangover' that I want to talk about. I really want people to comment and say 'yes, yes, I understand', so let me explain this concept and then you can agree. Or not – that's okay too :D
You've been involved writing a fic; maybe it's a long fic/multi chapter epic, or just a really intense fic. Maybe it's a dissertation – the first time I encountered this phenomenon was just after finishing university – or a thesis. Maybe it's a legal brief or a project proposal. Whatever the document, you've put a lot of time and research into it, but it's done with now. It's been posted at your journal, handed in to the faculty administrators, been sent to the client, whatever is appropriate.
But you can't let go. You find yourself still thinking about it, when you go to bed, or wake up, or while you're in the shower. 'What if I got this fact wrong?' and 'What if I just change this line?' and in creative works, 'What if the ending was this instead? Or if I expanded on that part in the middle?'.
Since posting my two recent long fics I've felt like this. And it really hasn't got anything to do with the quality of the finished products so much as my inability to let go, to stop wanting perfection, to start something new.
